Blog: Photographic Existentialism
Yeah, that title is pretty fucking dope isn’t it. I don’t even really know what it means but it sounds fucking dope. Really, I don’t know whats going through my head but at 22 almost 23 years old, I really feel like i’m going through some existential crisis. Which has caused me to think about existentialism and begin to question all of life meanings at 12am. Which has also caused me to look up quotes on existentialism while I listen to my “sad boi hours” playlist on Spotify. Anyways, here’s a small collection of quotes that kind of represent how I am feeling at the moment.
Jean-Paul Satre
“Life begins on the other side of despair. - We must act out passion before we can feel it. - I exist, that is all, and I find it nauseating. - Every existing thing is born without reason, prolongs itself out of weakness, and dies by chance.”
Don’t those quotes kinda just hit home too hard? I mean, I don’t really know what they mean, but reading them really resonates with me and awakens some sort of third eye that I feel like I possess. But in all honesty, for the past years I have been questioning my actions and my own life and who I am and what I wanna be. I’ve literally been going through an existential crisis since 18 years old. Which is funny, because I feel like that’s when I started to learn about what life is all about. Before then I kinda just existed, then I realized I actually had to do stuff and that my actions directly affected my life in more ways than I could actually know.
Like taking my creativity and photography for example. For years i’ve had people constantly tell me that I am “good” at what I do and that my photos are “dope” and that I could work for companies and make photos for a living, which would be awesome. But here I am not doing that, and chilling thinking about what could be. I should be out there doing what I said I wanted to do and like I can easily take the steps to do that, but like I lazy or depressed or something. Or maybe having this crisis is something that I needed to really push myself towards that goal. Literally throughout all these years i’ve constantly told myself that I’m not good enough and that my photos don’t stack up against other people stuff I see, but then when I really think about it, my stuff is fire. Maybe I just need to actually believe in my own work or at least believe in what people say about my work. I mean if this 10 minute research in Satre has taught me anything, it’s that life is about to begin because I sure am in the despair part of existence. So maybe life will be starting up soon.
Yeah i don’t really know what this post really was about other than a brain dump at 12am. But I hope you at least got something out of it. Don’t think too much like me, you might end up creating the next form of philosophy. Anyways, peace out and stay lit as always 🔥
