https://matthewbsanders.com/blog daily 0.75 2023-08-11 https://matthewbsanders.com/blog/blog-im-the-imposter monthly 0.5 2023-08-05 https://matthewbsanders.com/blog/real-to-surreal monthly 0.5 2022-11-22 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/7cf423e2-b990-42be-8aba-60f1dc4084d1/dune.jpeg Blog - Photography: Real to Surreal - So the photo in question is this, something that I created in about four hours while listening to sad music. Funny enough sad music really makes me want to create, I suggest doing that the next time you wanna feel creative. Also, only really spending four hours creating a composition like this is really impressive for me. I feel like the first time I tried to create a photo composite it took me like an entire day or something like that. So it was really nice to see that I made something so quality in such a short amount of time, I guess i’m actually getting better at that sort of thing. Dunes and a soul lost in time and space https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1669129939682-Q9ERXTY0QHY6EFYCHR98/Screen+Shot+2022-11-22+at+10.07.05+AM.png Blog - Photography: Real to Surreal https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1669129939566-75OJKE5GQNVTQDFUBQI7/Screen+Shot+2022-11-22+at+10.08.39+AM.png Blog - Photography: Real to Surreal https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1669129943584-9C0S1QJLX2LWJZ5LI5OT/Screen+Shot+2022-11-22+at+10.09.35+AM.png Blog - Photography: Real to Surreal https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1669129943814-RE0TFRV46ZK7PRM2FICA/Screen+Shot+2022-11-22+at+10.10.50+AM.png Blog - Photography: Real to Surreal https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1669129960098-EHSSU5F92B0QZVG1G6JN/dune.jpeg Blog - Photography: Real to Surreal https://matthewbsanders.com/blog/unwanted-memoirs monthly 0.5 2022-11-22 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/7d99e93e-6f5f-40c4-b7f5-8ceece3fd9c1/154454-Sanders-8.jpg Blog - Blog: Un(wanted) Memoirs - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://matthewbsanders.com/blog/an-update-in-the-ever-so-mundane-life-of-mine monthly 0.5 2022-08-12 https://matthewbsanders.com/blog/imeanttofinishthis monthly 0.5 2022-05-05 https://matthewbsanders.com/blog/blog-six-months-later monthly 0.5 2022-01-31 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/0731426e-c1d7-4af5-85a0-7a2d70738d40/Screenshot+2022-01-31+131714.png Blog - Blog: Six Months Later - I did bring my cameras though, both my digital and my film, to distract me from the plan that kept running through my head as I climbed the mountain. I took pictures and video of my journey up that mountain, stopping to get some water in and take in the lonely yet beautiful sites. I spent a lot of time thinking about my emotions and feelings and all that good stuff while I was going up. Honestly it was like really good therapy to just be alone with my thoughts in the outdoors with my cameras taking photos to help calm me down. Then I reached the summit and ate some hard boiled eggs while shooting a time-lapse of the sky and mountain range. Who would have thought that cold eggs could taste so good on the top of the mountain. I spent about an hour shooting photos, film, videos and helping others take pictures of their groups that also reached the summit. I actually met these two people that were pretty cool. I told them I came up the mountain to “fight my fear of heights,” with which they replied, “that’s a weird way to fight your fears.” I definitely agreed with them, but hey it was fun. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/8559a0b9-820b-48dc-be7b-f203ef615234/IMG_9193.jpg Blog - Blog: Six Months Later - I really did learn a lot about myself on that journey, and how life can be beautiful even when it sucks, so that trip was what kinda convinced me to stick around I guess. A little later after that trip I started therapy to really work on helping myself which has been a great experience. Over the past couple of months I’ve had multiple sessions with my therapist about managing depression, anxiety, and showing myself compassion with the tools that she taught me. I even have this little graph showing like my results every week from when I started to where I am now. But yeah, things are going better now. Some days are still hard, but I know how to work through those bad emotions a lot better now than I did before which is super awesome. Maybe I could share those tools with y’all one day but i’ve already written a lot and your boy’s wrists be hurting. Anyways y’all stay fresh, and thank you for reading. I hope to be more active and motivated to write in the future. Being real sad and depressed kinda put a damper on my ability to get myself to do the things I enjoyed doing but I feel like I am getting back into it. Okay, I am done now, byye. <3 https://matthewbsanders.com/blog/3zm1shftidw22znntfzsmnikbupz4w monthly 0.5 2021-08-01 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1627847645803-1QNMYGYIJO4WFTV1WTGU/Nobackbirth.jpg Blog - Blog: The Beginning of my Mental Health Journey - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://matthewbsanders.com/blog/fueled-by-sadness monthly 0.5 2021-07-28 https://matthewbsanders.com/blog/a-melodramatic-song monthly 0.5 2021-07-28 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1625262621633-ULYDI19SGK18XB1AMQX2/IMG_8707.jpg Blog - Music: A Melodramatic Song - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1625262683508-GEJRKG1IJ8ND3RRMZ3GO/IMG_8703.jpg Blog - Music: A Melodramatic Song - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1625262832540-AKVFHW82B0080EU0IJ7P/IMG_8696.jpg Blog - Music: A Melodramatic Song - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://matthewbsanders.com/blog/photographic-existentialism monthly 0.5 2022-01-31 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1624938625559-K8HWTQ4EA4NMEK3S59PA/photograph-Jean-Paul-Sartre-Gisele-Freund-1968.jpeg Blog - Blog: Photographic Existentialism - Jean-Paul Satre “Life begins on the other side of despair. - We must act out passion before we can feel it. - I exist, that is all, and I find it nauseating. - Every existing thing is born without reason, prolongs itself out of weakness, and dies by chance.” https://matthewbsanders.com/blog/film-the-good-the-bad monthly 0.5 2021-06-30 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1625022682854-LPMA18V7RWFU1ISOU7CF/793838-Sanders-3.jpg Blog - Film: the Good the Bad - Small Amount of shots (35-38 on 35mm film) Manual focusing takes a long time Capturing moments is harder Lack of reviewing shots once taken Developing and Scanning https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1625023001929-GAWUR16DVT1CWYR1KBFS/793839-Sanders-13.jpg Blog - Film: the Good the Bad - Having been used to being able to shoot as many shots as I wanted on my digital camera with virtually no repercussions, stepping into the film world was kind of frustrating. Also, I’m not a very patient person when it comes to shooting photos, I really like to just shoot and go but with film you really have to sit there and think about what you’re doing. Which has done some good and bad stuff for me, I mean I have gotten better at noticing compositions that I like so that’s cool. But literally the number one thing I hate the most about film is having to develop and scan the film. The main reason I hate it so much is that I don’t know how to develop film myself so I had to send it off for 3 WEEEEKS bro, and wait that long just to get the scans back (Which has now motivated me to learn how to develop film myself). https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1625023446650-H3KDIVOID57LDBI6BAXA/793840-Sanders-8.jpg Blog - Film: the Good the Bad - Make it stand out Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1625023289766-8ONBL8P3NRPM4W976UKB/793839-Sanders-22.jpg Blog - Film: the Good the Bad - Also, i’m like a pro at counting stops and guessing what settings I need to shoot in specific situations without having to use the light meter. I could easily teach someone how to use manual mode without even really trying because I had to shoot manually for an entire month and some change. In my opinion is better to rely on your manual knowledge than just letting the camera auto pick your settings, it just gives you more creative freedom. stand out https://matthewbsanders.com/blog/making-sounds monthly 0.5 2021-07-28 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1624935283569-5GB2ADTWHG9CPSZE68D4/unsplash-image-bwluYjFgycI.jpg Blog - Music: Making Sounds - But yeah since September of last year i’ve been learning how to play the guitar and learning how to record some stuff in Garage Band. Back in college I took some MIDI courses, so I knew a little bit about audio production but if i’m going to be honest with you, I never really actually paid any attention, so I pretty much had to learn everything from scratch. But I’ve been doing it, and i’m happy to say that i’ve gotten pretty mediocre at it. Which is a pretty nice accomplishment in itself. https://matthewbsanders.com/blog/my-first-roll monthly 0.5 2022-01-31 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1624896000088-TWOEN948YFIA514XD0P2/unsplash-image-2jqnXBOsVgA.jpg Blog - Photography: My First Roll - Okay, but seriously lets get into what i’m actually trying to talk about here. So back in April I ended up impulse buying a Canon AE-1 film camera. I mean, i’ve always wanted one and have been looking to get one since last year, but like I never really thought that I would actually buy one. But yeah, I ended up doing that, got it right from amazon for about $200 with a nifty fifty lenses on it. I also bought a pack of five rolls of portra 160 color film for it, which was the most recommended film on amazon. https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1624896305810-EW23QDZ5ANI8QFEKB7U2/793837-Sanders-1.jpg Blog - Photography: My First Roll https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1624896307473-VTO44MSDABVCIGQC7KYK/793837-Sanders-2.jpg Blog - Photography: My First Roll https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1624896312188-YDL59TNP9EPGNCGNV69M/793837-Sanders-3.jpg Blog - Photography: My First Roll https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1624896319796-F8YER1CIQM18Q98TC0L8/793837-Sanders-4.jpg Blog - Photography: My First Roll https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1624896322682-9EQ42IX2UQTTIEHDS84R/793837-Sanders-5.jpg Blog - Photography: My First Roll https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1624896329767-B4AWLHXZ5O6QLVOHKYIJ/793837-Sanders-6.jpg Blog - 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Photography: My First Roll https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1624896654634-58728SJSL8KD1R1HDNS9/793837-Sanders-36.jpg Blog - Photography: My First Roll https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1624896671663-YIOAJKTX2CNP6B02WO9G/793837-Sanders-38.jpg Blog - Photography: My First Roll https://matthewbsanders.com/blog/a-cotton-candy-update monthly 0.5 2022-01-31 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1617800842882-4QWH00EHN0L0T5DQVYVY/Screen+Shot+2021-04-07+at+9.06.49+AM.png Blog - Photography: A Cotton Candy Update - Recently, well more like for the past year or so I’ve been really into surrealism and using photoshop to manipulate photos that I have take in real life. I constantly find myself day dreaming about how I could make a photo interesting or how I could just bring a weird idea to life somehow. So thats where this piece came from. I had the idea mostly because I dream a lot, but also because I saw a photograph of a person with this cloud in their face. I just really wanted to do it for myself. 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Why put myself through the stress of living and striving for greatness if that greatness is going to be taken away from me one day? Especially since I don’t even know when that day is. It could be today, tomorrow, Christmas Day, like it could be any of those days. Why not just end it all and call is quits? To be honest it would probably be easier that way.” https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1605543278099-6J5M0Y5FP6P8R35807YO/IMG_7499.jpg Blog - Blog: Mortality - Anyway’s that pessimistic view on life that I used to have has changed quite a bit since those harder years of my life. I feel as though that the “medium risk” synopses that I was given back then has now changed to a more “low to no risk” reading. Having spent a large amount of time thinking about death myself and thinking about my own death for years, I think that my feelings towards death have really changed. I may not know what happens after death and I may not really know if heaven, hell, or God are real. However, I do know that death isn’t just “sad, and scary.” It mostly depends on the way you look at it, but right now in my life, I see death as a motivator of some sort. Something to make me strive for becoming a better person and a better friend. I don’t mean to become a better person to ensure my spot in a heaven or to get brownie points with God when I die, but to become a better person for those who will remember me when I finally expire. https://matthewbsanders.com/blog/american-gothic-but-not monthly 0.5 2022-01-31 https://images.squarespace-cdn.com/content/v1/5f41865753f6be5869cfac8e/1603735859818-NQELYW841EP9L6B4Z1PP/IMG_7020.jpg Blog - Blog: American Gothic but Not - Now all short stories aside, on October 24th me and my close friend Fred went out to take some pictures for fun. 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