Music: Fueled by Sadness

Another month later, welcome back again to the melodramatic life of Matthew Binamira Sanders. On today episode of “what can Matt spiel about in 30 minutes or less,” we have a “song” created by Matt himself whilst in a state of pure sadness and depression. Stay tuned to listen to the very rough cut of the song, recorded mid tears with nothing but pure darkness in my mind.

Real talk though, this past month has been a pretty emotionally stressful one. Usually i’m pretty able to mask the pain with fake smiles and unjustified positivity but honestly, i’m pretty exhausted of doing all that. I’m literally at the epitome of “you’re doing too much,” but not in a good way. Anyways, all of that mental health stuff is for another blog post. Back to the task at hand.

So I made this three minute little freestyle on my guitar. It’s pretty rough, and I really didn’t feel like doing another take or redoing what I had already did. To be honest, I really enjoyed how it sounded and how you could feel the pure pain in my brain. I literally just got back home and plugged in my guitar to my laptop, pressed record, and started playing until I didn’t feel like playing anymore. So this is the product of that, I really wasn’t in the greatest of moods and I definitely was in a fairly unlit place you feel me, but I did feel better after playing my guitar for a good 30 minutes. It’s honestly my go to therapy at this point. Anyways, here’s the song that I ended up doing. Thanks for reading this short little update, you’re dope af, peace out and enjoy the listen :)